.21 February, 2007 ' 1:46 PM Y
So much misery happened in my life... And i just can't make myself to accept it. I was kept in the dark for a year... I trusted him so much, so much. I trust him more than i trust myself & i didn't believe this thing happened to me. I sacrificed alot in this relationship. Alot... 5 years we've been together, all the ups & down we've been thru & it's the end. I've been giving in alot, most of the time. I can't sleep, i can't eat. Been crying the whole day. Trying to be strong, but i can't do it. Why must it happened to me? Can't he see all the sacrifices that i've done. It's all because there's a third party involved! I guess every person will or have gone thru this shit before... If u're asking me if the other party knows bout us, i believe the answer is NO! Hate him? No. I don't hate him at all. NEVER... Eventhough all the things that he had put me through, i can't make myself to hate him. Love him? Yes... Till now. Always. Will i come back in his life? I donno. Leaving him is the last thing on my mind. But will he? Only God knows. If he love me, he will.
